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if (when you go)

by Kari Kirkland

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1.
Looking in my mirror Took me by surprise I can't help but see you Running often through my mind Helpless like a baby Sensual disguise I can't help but love you It's getting better all the time I can't help it if I wanted to I wouldn't help it even if I could I can't help it if I wanted to I wouldn't help it, no I can't help it if I wanted to I wouldn't help it even if I could I can't help it if I wanted to I wouldn't help it, no Love to run my fingers Softly while you sigh Love came and possessed you Bringing sparkles to your eyes Like a trip to heaven Heaven is the prize And I'm so glad I found you, yeah You're an angel in disguise I can't help it if I wanted to I wouldn't help it even if I could I can't help it if I wanted to I wouldn't help it, no I can't help it if I wanted to I wouldn't help it even if I could I can't help it if I wanted to I wouldn't help it, no
2.
When you just give love And never get love You'd better let love depart I know it's so, and yet I know I can't get you out of my heart You made me leave my happy home You took my love and now you're gone Since I fell for you Life brings such misery and pain I guess I'll never be the same Since I fell for you Well, it's too bad And it's too sad But I'm in love with you First you love me, then you snub me But what can I do? I'm so in love with you I guess I'll never see the light I get the blues most every night Since I fell for you
3.
Fix You 05:06
When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you And high up above, or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try, you'll never know Just what you're worth Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you Tears stream down your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down your face, and I Tears stream down your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes Tears stream down your face, and I Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you
4.
Fragile 05:12
If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one Drying in the colour of the evening sun Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away But something in our minds will always stay Perhaps this final act was meant To clinch a lifetime's argument That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could For all those born beneath an angry star Lest we forget how fragile we are On and on the rain will fall Like tears from a star like tears from a star On and on the rain will say How fragile we are how fragile we are
5.
Did I say something wrong? Did you hear what I was thinking? Did I talk way too long when I told you all my feelings that night? Is it you? Is it me? Did you find somebody better? Someone who isn't me, 'cause I know that I was never your type Never really your type Overthinking's got me drinking Messing with my head Tell me what you hate about me Whatever it is, I'm sorry Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I know I can be dramatic But everybody said we had it Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm coming to terms with a broken heart I guess that sometimes good things fall apart When you said it was real, guess I really did believe you Did you fake how you feel when we parked down by the river that night? That night? That night when we fogged up the windows in your best friend's car 'Cause we couldn't leave the windows down in December Whoa Tell me what you hate about me Whatever it is, I'm sorry Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I know I can be dramatic But everybody said we had it Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I'm coming to terms with a broken heart I guess that sometimes good things fall apart
6.
I've been trying to find a way to say how I miss you when you leave 'Cause I need to get it clear, I'll be ok, I just won't breathe If I could keep my arms tight and wrapped around you so you'd feel me there In the light that shines through your window I'll be everywhere If you can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs If you can trust yourself when they may doubt you, I'll still be here I couldn't love you more than in this moment, so you know Take these words with you, when you go A poem I read and loved as a child I am giving it to you 'Cause it says it so much better than I could ever do Remember me in quiet times you'll feel me there I'm in the walls and shadows, I'll be everywhere If you can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs If you can trust yourself when they may doubt you, I'll still be here I couldn't love you more than in this moment, so you know Take these words with you, when you go I'm in the walls and shadows, I'll be everywhere If you can keep your head when all about you are losing theirs I couldn't love you more than in this moment, so you know Take these words with you, when you go
7.
When I took you out I knew what you were all about But when I did I didn't mean to turn you on Now I bring you home You told me goodnight's not enough for you I'm sorry baby I didn't mean to turn you on No, I didn't mean to turn you on You read me wrong I wasn't trying to lead you on Not like you think I didn't mean to turn you on I know you Were expecting a one night stand When I refused I knew you wouldn't understand I told you twice I was only trying to be nice Only trying to be nice Ooh, I didn't mean to turn you on Babe now why should I Feel guilty 'cause I won't give Guilty 'cause I won't give in I didn't mean to turn you on Ooh, I didn't mean to turn you on When I took you out I knew what you were all about But when I did I didn't mean to turn you on No, I didn't mean to turn you on I didn't mean to turn you on.... I didn't mean to turn you on....
8.
Looking out the door I see the rain Fall upon the funeral mourners Parading in a wake of sad relations As their shoes fill up with water Maybe I'm too young To keep good love from going wrong But tonight you're on my mind So... you'll never know Broken down and hungry for your love With no way to feed it Where are you tonight? Child, ya know how much I need it Too young to hold on And too old to just break free and run Sometimes a man gets carried away When he feels like should be having his fun Much too blind to see the damage he's done Sometimes a man must awake to find that Really he has no one So I'll wait for you, love And I'll burn Will I ever see your sweet return? Oh, will I ever learn? Oh-oh, lover, you should've come over 'Cause it's not too late Lonely is the room, the bed is made The open window lets the rain in Burning in the corner is the only one who dreams He had you with him My body turns And yearns for a sleep that won't ever come It's never over My kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder It's never over All my riches for her smiles When I've slept so soft against her It's never over All my blood for the sweetness of her laughter It's never over She is the tear that hangs inside my soul forever Oh, but maybe I'm just too young To keep good love from going wrong Oh-oh-oh, lover You should've come over, yeah, yes Yes, I feel too young to hold on And much too old to break free and run Too deaf, dumb and blind to see the damage I've done Sweet lover, you should've come over Oh, love, well I've waited for you Lover, lover, lover Lover, love, love, love, love, love, love! Lover, you should've come over 'Cause it's not too late

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'if (when you go)' is Kari Kirkland's second studio album. Recorded at Capitol studios in Los Angeles with Shelly Berg, Peter Erskine, Dean Parks, Kevin Axt, Carlitos del Puerto, Terell Stafford, Brian Kilgore, and the Budapest Scoring Orchestra, the album features 8 contemporary jazz covers.

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released January 13, 2023

Kari Kirkland - Vocals, Backing Vocals
Shelly Berg - Piano, Rhodes, B3, Backing Vocals
Dean Parks - Electric and Acoustic Guitar
Peter Erskine - Drums
Kevin Axt - Acoustic and Electric Bass
Brian Kilgore - Percussion
Carlitos del Puerto - Acoustic Bass
Jason Arkins - Saxophone
David Mason - Saxophone
Camilo Molina - Trumpet
Michael Gutierrez - Trumpet
Brandon Bryant - Trombone
Budapest Scoring Orchestra - Strings

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Kari Kirkland Palm Desert, California

The selection of songs on Kari Kirkland's debut album 'Wild is the Wind' cross musical boundaries, ranging from jazz, Adult Contemporary, pop, and blues, with moments of Latin and cabaret. The album features Roy Hargrove, John Daversa, Dean Parks, Kevin Axt, Gregg Field, Brian Kilgore, the Budapest Scoring Orchestra, and Shelly Berg. Engineered/mixed by Don Murray, and mastered by Paul Blakemore. ... more

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